Dear not-really from Texas,

I am glad you are finding home there.

I don’t turn my phone on until two hours after I wake up, which today meant at 7:20 I pushed a pen into the page on my lap in response to the last fragment of your question, ‘what do the enlightened do?’. My note read ‘first, acknowledge they are not enlightened. second, begin.’

I arm myself with a layer cake of vintage coats over white vans, a hand-thrown mug of coffee, my morning read, and a pen from my local nursery- my pockets filled with blank post-its like collected shells from a child’s first visit to the sea. Ninety-eight percent of the time I look ridiculous, my regalia suggestive of a pigeon-feeder in some park when cities were still cities. As the lion-man sang ‘think I’ll let my freak flag fly’.

Today, as I notated my way through the pre-sunrise, the following not-line jumped out at me:

“The butterfly of the mind is crushed by the holding.”

*part one.

In honor of the 8th anniversary of my dedication to daily practice. Here are reflections on my 6th and 3rd year; originally published on Magic Inclined, in January and February 2021.

May we all find our way home someday.

Armed with a list of concepts and the intention of looping these insights to the coming of the first full moon of this new year, I sat at my computer and found myself empty of mind and empty of mouth - as if my creative fuel line had been cut at some point while loading my bags back up the tight staircase built for the widths of elvish lifestyle in the mid-1800s. I found myself wanting to do nothing... Let the hunger games begin.

'Doing nothing': the final frontier of deaths I'm down with…

Diversity is a fundamental property of all ecological systems. Take any small piece away, and softly feel her crumble. Each organism in an ecosystem is of equal importance to the whole. It’s the intricacies, the variations of beauty and complexity that build the miracle; but it’s the interdependence that makes it exquisite.

I have been thinking lately of the energetic diversity of our human species…

I was in the process of evolving my perspective and I was slowly breaking open. The phenomenon of hearing language that describes something you already know is true, and the relief that gives a human heart is one I hold up as a highest expression of community and story. She unpacked a revolution for me in saying that “lowest effective dosage is an Anti-Colonial act”…